Ride on

 

For someone who is usually a joyful, creative soul,
I can be extremely uptight.  There is a part of me
that is totally structured and scared to death
of being spontaneous or breaking "rules." 

My husband and I took our bikes to the local
bike shop for a tune up this week ~ we haven't ridden
them in years ~ and my husband decided he wanted to
ride one of the bikes home.  He was like a little kid ~
happy and excited to ride his bike again. 
But as soon as he suggested this I tensed up. 
I mean, this wasn't part of the plan.  And I
was immediately upset by the idea.

So, I would have to drive home alone?  What if I got lost?
I wasn't really paying attention when we drove there.
Wasn't it too far for him to ride home?  I was sure he
would fall or get hit by a car and end up hurt, maybe
lying on the side of the road with some horrible
injury.  When I tried to reason that we should just drive
home with the bike, the guys in the bike shop laughed. 
They sarcastically said, "Yeah, you don't want to be one
of those people that rides your bike everywhere."

I tried to explain to them that Jerred has a
tendency to overdo it.  He'd push too hard or want
to do some trick with the bike and end up hurt.
But they laughed off my concerns and just shook their heads.

Of course I made it home fine in the car and so did Jerred
on his bike.  And thinking about it later that night,
I was disappointed that I hadn't been more supportive,
that I didn't share in his excitement of wanting to get back
on that bike and feel the world spinning past him.

So this is my reminder to loosen up a bit and not get
so lost in what I think I should be doing that I forget
how to live a joyfully messy life.

Comments

[lindsayblake]

i miss you!!!

[Kelly]

I agree loosening up is great...but I also remember that fateful birthday years ago when Jerred overdid it on his bike and a phone was broken in the process. You're cautious and careful... nothing wrong with that!